Today, a little more personal topic than usual.
A couple days ago I had one of those days from hell. You know, one where everything goes wrong from the start and ends with drinking wine straight from the bottle.
The day job wasn’t good (putting it mildly), I was already on a data diet until my new plan kicked in, which kind of didn’t matter as I left my phone at work. And I wasn’t going back because it was already freezing rain.
So I got home and was determined to make it a better day. But try as I might, it got worse. I went to a common area in my building for free WiFi on my tablet to try and get some quick 10-15 minutes of promo work done. This community room is open to all, including quite the group of characters, including two ladies who tend to gripe a lot.
Sure enough, one of them started a rant. A very, very personal tirade about her mental illness, etc. I’m a very empathetic person and I’ve had my issues, but at this point, I was emotionally cooked and I needed my own mental help. Even the other “griper” got up and left. An hour later I finally was able to cut in on her extensive mental history and had to leave. Another hour wasted.
I got on the elevator and as luck would have it, I briefly got stuck. I got out as soon as the doors opened, had to let out desk person know what happened and finally got back to my apartment.
The theme for the day was STUCK. And like a cork in a bottle I was ready to explode.
I could not find peace, my mind wouldn’t stop, and then I couldn’t sleep. I tried meditation, quiet music, and reading. Fortunately I could sleep in today.
Which reminds me of Scarlet O’Hara in Gone With the Wind:
“tomorrow is another day”
But the next day was only OK. And I seemed to be on repeat. It was time to analyze it and fix it. Find the root of the issue and deal. What in the heck was really bothering me.
I’d switched seats on the Titanic.
Often you’ll hear people in addiction recovery use this phrase when they’ve conquered one addiction only to replace it with another.
In my case it wasn’t addiction, but some professional choices I’d made months ago. Or SSDD. Same shit, different day. I was aggravated that I’d fallen into this loop. Again. So here I am, making more changes. Time to get into the lifeboat.
Next blog, a return to Steampunk works.
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